The new year is always a great time to think about starting fresh. It’s an arbitrary and sometimes rather silly human custom to attach such significance to a date. Dates aren’t “real” per se, but man-made constructs to help denote the passage of time. Marking time goes all the way back to the beginning of human history (and some believe even before), although I grant you it wasn’t as extreme as it is today.
I’ve never been a “New Year’s Resolution” kind of person. I’ve never really believed you need a new year to make a chance in your life. And this is coming from a guy whose day of birth was actually ON New Year’s Day (January 1st, 1979 to be precise). Nevertheless, the end of the holiday season does seem to be an appropriate time to re-examine things. For one thing, it involves a degree of cleaning, as the Christmas tree comes down and the decorations are put away from another year. It’s time to set things back the way they were (or change them, if need be) and, basically, “get on with it.”
I’ve spent a lot of time over the past month reading and reviewing some of my creative efforts. I can honestly say that a lot of what I’ve written has held up pretty well. But then I look at more recent writings and already they seem flat, stale, uninteresting. In fact it’s hard to tell they were even written by the same person.
Life stresses have come and gone and changed me as a person – but I have let too many things get in the way of one of the greatest pleasures I have ever known. I love writing – I love creating and crafting, of taking vague ideas and giving them form, structure, substance. Writing is at the core of almost all communication, be it professional or amateur, for entertainment or personal enjoyment. There’s not a single aspect of the process I don’t enjoy. I even get a rush from clacking on a keyboard and seeing the letters appear on the screen.
Yeah, I’ve got it bad.
But I’ve also gotten away from that. I’ve let other obsessions get in my way. I’ve let life stress and other problems get in my way. I stopped giving myself time each day to write. (Okay, so I’ve always been terrible at writing to a deadline; I said I was good, I didn’t say I was perfect).
So yes, as the title of this entry suggests rather non-discreetly, it is high time I not only go back and focus on my original creative passion, but it’s also time I improve it. Writing pretty words only gets you so far if you can’t do it consistently. My personal lethargy (or perhaps laziness would be a better term) has been nipped in the bud on several levels in my life – including, now, this one. I’ve had a screenplay that I’ve been writing off and on for about twelve years, now. Twelve years! (Its history predates that; it had been a prose story way back in Jr. High.) It’s time for that screenplay to get finished, to see life again. My VS, Frontiers, has stagnated severely thanks to an inconsistent release schedule (that was almost entirely the fault of yours truly). The fanbase has sadly dwindled a bit, but a few have stayed on and for them, I will make sure this show gets done. (Got a few plans in motion to gain a bigger readership, too.)
I don’t make New Year’s resolutions. But what I am going to do is make a commitment to myself to become a better writer. To stay focused on it. To wrap up Frontiers, to get Clash done once and for all, and then to move on to projects I actually intend to film, like Eternia and The Way of Seeming.
It won’t be easy. I’ll probably stumble, or get bored. But things worth doing are often the most difficult to achieve.
Oh yeah, one more resolution: to stop using so many darn cliche’s.